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Friday, February 02, 2007 

New Year, New..... whatever



Wow it's been a long time. I haven't had much to write about, well, actually, I've had a ton to write about - just not much I wanted to share.

Work hasn't changed. I'm thankful to still have a job most days, but there are times... boy howdy are there times when I wish I could huck it all and just go away to someplace, well, different. Being as I'm all "responsible" and shit, that probably isn't going to happen any time soon.


Let's see, what's been up. Well, my ex is getting married - and for some WEIRD reason everyone seems to think I should just "get over it" and suck it up. I understand that for the most part, because we stayed friends. And we really are friends. I went out with him and his fiance' (who, on a side note, he's only known 8 months, moved in with after about a month, and her daughter was calling him daddy after about 3 months. Huh.). It was um, uncomfortable? Weird? HARD for me? I don't know how to describe it. I don't think they felt it, I'm VERY good at hiding when I'm uncomfortable, and they called and invited me over for Superbowl Sunday. I don't know that they would have done that if they felt at all uncomfortable. Now, the thing is, that he can never know how I feel about this. He deserves to be happy, and he deserves his "friend" to support him in everything. I just really wish sometimes that the people around me, the ones who have no vested interest in him or what he's doing, would take a minute to shut the hell up and just let me feel badly about this for awhile. It's not easy, and quite frankly it sucks. And I know it may sound petty and childish. I understand that, but it's how I feel - which means it's not wrong. Deep in my heart though, after all of this ranting and raving, I truly wish him happiness. Which is why I will never talk to him about how I feel about all of this. I'm sure everything will work out for them. She's really quite nice.

The whole thing put me in a bit of a "mood" though. I'm having a very hard time shaking it. My friends have their own stuff going on, I hate to bug people with all my petty crap. (Not petty to me, but petty to most everyone else), so I am now going to just throw it out into cyberspace instead.

Other than that, well, there's been nothing all that exciting. I had a great Christmas with family, and I get to have ANOTHER Christmas next week with my sister and her kids (see above, aren't they the CUTEST!) are finally making the trek in from out of town. That will be fun. I missed watching the kids open their presents. I'm very excited to see them! My unconditional love from the kids. You gotta LOVE that!!!

The other notable thing that has been done so far this year was a trip I took to the Ocean for a few days. It was SO WINDY, but it was incredible. A friend at work loaned me her house, and Pam and I went and had a blast. It was relaxing, we played a little at the casino, read, relaxed, went down to the beach for a minute until we almost got blown into the sea! But it was exactly what I needed.

Well, for now that'll have to do. I have to actually do some work. I'll try to keep on it from now on. Happy Friday!

Wake up... come back...

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